So.. the baby booties I’m knitting for Naomi will be finished by the end of this weekend. No if’s and’s or but’s. No butts either. That would just be gross.

But really, I started them last night, got the main piece done for one foot. I chose a very simple pattern because I think part of my problem is choosing to do things a little more difficult and then it takes too long.

After the booties, I want to knit a bib and a hat.

But for now, an easy goal: booties by the end of the weekend. If I knit the main piece of the second foot tonight, then do the toe pieces tomorrow and the strap peices Friday, I should be done way ahead of my deadline.

So.. I don’t really have anything specific to say, and that in itself makes me feel sad. I guess I haven’t found anything going on recently to be particularly interesting, at least enough to warrant a blog post.

I could post about how I got really upset on Memorial Day, but I think it was all just a crazy misunderstanding. I’m over it.

I could post about how Betty White got attacked at the Doggy Dash last weekend. That was bad. I honestly didn’t think it was as bad as it was, her ear was bleeding but that’s what they do, the smallest cut and they bleed and bleed. Turns out it was much worse than that. Three hundred and eighty dollars worse. Ok so maybe I’m kind of a bad person that I measure her injury in dollars. But she’s doing ok, recovering just fine as far as I can tell. The bandages come off when I get home from work, so I guess we’ll see then.

I could post about the fact that Ruth’s baby shower is now 2 weeks away and I need to get invitations designed, made and sent. Yeah I’m a little behind. That’s on the “to do” list for tonight (if I can stay awake) and tomorrow. I have ideas for it, at least. The problem is the doing.

Also on schedule for tomorrow is sushi with a good friend of mine. She got a gift card from her ex-husband’s girlfriend. Weird. But, sushi is sushi and we’ll enjoy it!

I think the rest of the weekend will be spent relaxing and enjoying this beautiful summer weather. The past week has been perfect and I have high hopes that the rain is behind us.

I could post about my status on my three knitting projects, and the fact that I really, really need to start at least a fourth one, for baby Naomi. But I won’t, because I’m embarassingly behind.

I could post about my stupid coworkers but that’s never a good idea.

I could post about how last week my car overheated and I’m a genius and tried to drive home anyway. It all turned out in the end.

I could post about going to the horse track and seeing harness racing and losing $8. Or how I learned I’m much more successful at Black Jack (doubled money) vs slot machines (ended up at $0). For $40 I had a good afternoon with friends, ate too much at the buffet, and learned some tips from the dealer, though.

I like the smell of cilantro. That certainly doesn’t warrant its own post, so I thought I’d throw it in there. Sorry, Miriam.

I made some cupcakes for dessert last night, though they were forgotten and not eaten, they would have been good. I have some extras in the fridge, so I think I’ll see if anyone wants to share tonight.

Oh and I made some pretty fantastic pulled pork for fajitas.

I could post about watching “Pretty In Pink” last night and how I didn’t realize so few people I know have seen that movie, but this one sentence pretty much covers it.

I need to take my camera out more. I need to start observing people more. I need to get back into my knitting, my running and my blogging.

But all I really want to do is sleep right now.

So.. I like to know the reasons for things. I like to know the how and why and where, because it helps me understand better. I have a very logical mind and I like everything to fit “just so” and then everything is tidy and clean. I do this at work. If my boss asks me for something, I always try to understand the full picture, because then I can offer a better way of doing things. If he simply wants to know x, and I give him x, sometimes he comes back around and wants to know y and z, and had I done the simple asking in the first place, I could have provided that to him upfront.

I do this in relationships too, which doesn’t turn out so well. I can’t take a “we should take a break” and not ask why. I need to understand. And most men don’t want to tell the truth. This isn’t a “he’s just not that into you” chapter, even though it feels that way. So, I asked why. And his response was conflicting. One friend told me it didn’t matter, end of day it means the same thing. One friend told me maybe he’s gay. At least that made me laugh.

Either you want a relationship or you don’t, and either you like me or you don’t. If you are scared, it’s ok, I get scared too.

Monday I gave myself a pity party. It wasn’t just about the one thing. It was every bad thing pressing up against me, reminding me of every failure I’ve ever had. I cried off and on, seeming to turn on randomly, without warning. I talked to a couple friends; I complained, I asked “what’s wrong with me?” But, I also reached out, which is something I didn’t use to do. I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. I told myself it’s ok to hurt and cry today, but tomorow I’d be ok.

And I woke up Tuesday, eyes sore and tired from crying. I still felt a little sad at my loss this week, but I was ok. I have friends who love and support me when I’m down. I am an intelligent, attractive and creative woman. And any man who can’t see and appreciate that, isn’t worth my time anyway. Easier said than done, sometimes. But this week, I’m ok.

So.. Andrew’s birthday is tomorrow and his scarf is 1-2 inches long. Christmas scarf it is!

So.. today is my company’s annual “Day in the Park.” Office closes at 11:30 and we all go to a park in Folsom and have a BBQ, play some weird games, which always includes Pictionary and kickball, and then go home. So basically, I am getting paid to picnic. Which is kind of cool, I just wish I could choose who I was picnicking with, instead of being with coworkers.

Coworkers like the one who came up to me this week and told me her husband is a cross-dresser. I don’t know why she told me that.

But at least I get to get some free food, enjoy a beautiful sunny day, and not have to work. The only downside is the work will still be there and either I have to take it home with me this evening or face a heavier load Monday. The procrastinator in me says let it wait.

For my contribution, I made a new recipe, which I kind of created on my own. I made some delicious brownies, did a peanut butter filling and topped it with chocolate ganache. Peanut Butter Truffle Brownies. They are delicious, although I realized maybe a bit messy for a picnic when it’s 85 degrees. (Can I just say OHMYGOODNESS I love this weather!!) Photos to come, I saved a couple at home to take pictures of later. Ok I admit, that’s not the only reason I saved some. But, I do need to get more serious about what I eat and mostly working out, because the number I saw on the doctor’s scale yesterday was a bit shocking.